In my almost 7 years of being a Christian, the most common narrative of the prophetic words or words of encouragement I receive happens to be “You are a voice for the voiceless”. My only issue with that was that in my past, silence was a requirement for me to survive. Later on, I started to show signs of PTSD (click for details on PTSD). I often found myself in unhealthy dynamics in relationships (platonic, familial, & romantic) because the idea of speaking my truth scared me half to death. I developed co-dependent/powerless behaviors (Click for article on codependency– FYI, stumbled on this article by chance, not because I was on the site, for the specific purposes of the website, in case you were wondering LOL). Which, for me meant I often equated loyalty and ‘long-suffering’ with being a doormat. So “Powerlessness”/co-dependency, felt like home for me. The idea of having a voice seemed almost impossible.
For those of you who are new to my blog to give you an idea of why PTSD was a part of my life click for video: God taught me how to love.
When I look at the lives of some of the people God used mightily in the Bible, though they were called to do great things, many felt inadequate. BUT I love that no matter our circumstances or origin story, Jesus has a way of reminding us that it does not disqualify us from His purpose for our lives. In fact, it is those very things that when surrendered to Him, are redefined and become the catalyst for our purpose.
The truth Beloved is that no matter the narrative of your past, God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly and above all, we can ask or think. It is just for us to face every lie we have ever believed about ourselves and cling to the absolute truth that says who we were created to be. We are to grieve the unfortunate circumstances that, for however long, gave us our identity, fuel, strength, and choose to invite him into the dark and untouched places. It is there in our grieving that we are set apart from those who don’t believe. For we do not grieve without hope. We grieve knowing that God is able to redeem ALL things. That even “if we are faithless He remains faithful for He cannot deny Himself (2 Tim 2:13)”.
- I implore you to take some time today and write down areas where hopelessness has plagued your life. Areas where lies were woven into the fabric of your identity.
- If unaware ask God to reveal those areas to you and be willing to grieve each lie and or memory as they come up. I recommend seeking assistance in counseling (click for my recommended counseling option).
- Take 10 minutes to look up bible verses that counteract each lie and meditate on these whenever those lies come up. See below for examples:
No one loves me – I am loved (click for verse: Romans 5:8)
I am unwanted – I am His (click for verse: 1 John 3:1)
My past disqualifies me – I am made new in Christ (click for verse: 2 Corinthians 5:17)
I am a mistake – I am NOT a mistake (click for verse: Jeremiah 29:11)
Lord, I thank you for the life of this beautiful reader. I pray that in this season you would do a beautiful thing in them. That you will give them the tools necessary for grieving with hope. I thank you that your word says, blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted and that in our times of grieving our past and the lies we have always believed that we find our hope in you. I thank you that though this is where we are now, this is not where we will always be. That your plans and purpose is far greater than we can fathom. I pray that you would replace each lie with your truth and that you will lavish the reader with your love. In Jesus’ name. Amen.